Bombs and Broken

Sitting at my work study job and can not focus on getting school work done. So i thought maybe I should blog. Maybe if I share some thoughts they won't sit in my head, and I can get other things done that I need to.

Don't expect to much from this entry ** Warning, it's not a happy entry**

These past few days have felt like bombs landing in my life in the most oddest of ways. Each one has left me in a state of broken. I feel like parts of my life have exploded and they are lying around in broken pieces, and I can't help but do nothing with them but just kind of stare at them. As I look at these pieces, I am pondering, crying, shocked, sad, overwhelmed, hurt, numb, dumb founded, in denial, confused, pushing away, stuffing, trying to cover up, and dare i say in some sort of sick way, AMAZED. It's kind of like when you see a accident and you can't help but look.

These bombs and broken pieces I will not forget or walk away from.

Some random thoughts on my mind:

1. It's sometimes is too small of a world

2. Knowing things

3. Practice of confidentiality

4. Struggle with feelings shared, and feelings hidden

5. WHY??!!!???

6. REALLY ???!!!??

7. Nope

8. Stop mind, stop

9. Loving can hurt

10. FALLEN world i will forever never understand you