Positive for People Pleasing

I have officially been employed for three weeks now.  This week I have taken on 13 clients.  It has been an interesting couple of weeks.  Not only have I moved, and tried to get settled into a new life, but in starting a new job also means learning the culture with in a work place. Some days this leaves me more exhausted in trying to figure out what that culture is than actually working with the clients.  Honestly, It probably has a lot to do with my constant struggle of being a full-blown “People Pleaser”.

Though I have been through graduate school and worked on many areas of my life I still at the end of the day struggle intensely with being a “People Pleaser”.  I have noticed that   with each Client that walks into my office I think,  “I want them to like me”. Other thoughts that are loud in my head, “I hope I do something more from them than anyone else has”… no wait the honest truth of what I say in my head really is,  “I am going to rock this clients world more than their last counselor”… pray for me I still am in need of much help. 

There are some phrases I hear around me that just bug the crap out of me. 

“Think Positive”

“I am over it”

“That’s in the past”

“You just need to _____”

If just thinking Positive thoughts really changed people believe me my Job would not be a profession.  There is more to healing and living in this fallen world than just THINKING positive.  We were not created to merely think. 

Really you are “over it”? Really? If one is so called “over it” whatever that means, I don’t think it would need to be said.  Wasn’t it said in Scripture “AS you pass through the waters I will be with you” not “Jump over the Waters!”

What is the point of talking about the present if you can’t talk about the past? If we are to remember the stories of the Old Testament and the New Testament then what is the harm in remembering in our lives what has been, what is, and what will be?  If you are unable to talk about something in your past that is left in the past my twisted advice REVISIT it!

Huh? Reading through this post I am wondering if I need to change my blog title from “Lani’s Life” to Dairy of a Mad White Women…