I have not blogged about Christmas because frankly it would have been too painful. I have been trying very hard to not think about Christmas a whole lot this year for many different reasons like my family is so spread out, my parents are far away, being single, just to name a few reasons . I have hated the normal question, "Lani what are you doing for Christmas?" I had planned on Christmas being me and my cats just trying to make it through the day. I had so many great kind offers for the holidays and yet nothing seemed to feel what my heart was aching for... my family.
Last week after a long conversation with my friend Elizabeth she said I should go be with my brother. So a week ago I bought a ticket to California, and was happy that I was going to get to see my brother.
This past weekend I had the most horrible dream. I awoke in a panic and filled with deep sadness, I missed my parents deeply and wanted to be with them terribly. Elizabeth was so kind to listen to my whole dream and hear me talk through life phases yet to come that I dread. Then we went for a nice Saturday walk and ate at the Oviedo Townhouse which is this cute little small town restaurant. Then enjoyed my afternoon doing a few things. I had wrote my parents an e-mail to call me when they got a chance because I just wanted to hear their voices. Then heading out to my evening I got a call from my mom, I shared with her about my bad dream then she said I am so sorry to hear about your bad dream but I have some good news. I was like what? She said we are house sitting for a couple in Laguna Beach, California for the holidays were leaving for California tomorrow, and so we will pick you up at the airport.... Silence.... I was in shock.. What? What's going to happen? I think I asked my mom to tell me again. I still can't believe it, I was planning on spending my Christmas alone with my cats, and now I will be spending Christmas with my brother, sister-in-law, niece, and my parents. I am going to be with my WHOLE FAMILY for Christmas. I was filled with gladness my eyes would not stop with the flowing of tears. I am thrilled to post on my blog, that I will be HAVING Christmas with the people i love more than LIFe itself, and I will not a "Blue Christmas" but as "Fabulous Christmas".
I feel so lucky, blessed, excited, and so relieved for my unexpected Christmas surprise.
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